Goodbye

Just wanted to say goodbye to all my blog friends! I will continue to check your blogs and comment: I have grown to enjoy so many blogs especially the ones I feel connected to by sharing similair stories, but feel led by the spirit at this time that I need to delete my blog. I wish we lived in a perfect world where there was no worries for safety and worrying about protecting our children from harmful people but until God comes back for us this doesn't exist. God Bless and I will stay in touch by email and comments Tracy and Molly!

Go OU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Such a very proud Great Aunt oh that sounds old, oh well

Oh my gosh this was such an exciting night for me, I was overwhelmed by joy and goosebumps, being able to just enjoy the birth of my precious great nephew last night, well 2:20 in the morning actually. I couldn't help thinking about Aarons birthmother, through in all those hours we had waiting in the waiting room, heavy on my heart were the birth mothers who go into have thier babies and have either have choosen adoption or have thier babies removed from DHS, how many emotions and how sad it must be for them to leave the hospital after 9 months of a baby growing inside them and all the pain of birthing them and then they're gone. Anyways praying for all those moms tonight! Here is a glimpse of my perfect nephew

Daily Devotional

My friend also a foster mom also a police officers wife sent me this devotional on Friday and I LOVED it! So I subscibed to it, how awesome to check your email and have a devotional, bible verse right there for you and when they seem to be written especially for you well that makes it extra special! Molly I can't wait to get the boys together and I would love to joing the transracial play group and Tracey I cannot wait to talk to you about our kiddos personalities and what helped you all out! Anyways heres today verse and I loved it.... He siad to them, "because of the littleness of your faith[ that is, your lack of firmly relying trust] For I say to you, if you have the faith like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, move from here to yonder, place, and it will move, and nothing will be impossible to you." Matthew 17:20

Oh my gosh do you know how small a grain of mustard seed is? I think I have so much Faith until I'm knocked on my bottom and realize this verse is talking to me. I'm working on my Faith and constantly reminding myself that God is in control and can't wait to get that grain size amount of Faith.

August beautiful August

Nothing is too big for our God! I'm constantly reminding myself of this as I lay awake in bed. My friend gave me a great resource when she told me about the book, "The Power of a Praying parent", God specifically choose us to be the parents of our children and in doing so I have to believe he has also equipped us to handle the issues that arise. We are really just now beginning to see the real special needs of our youngest and behaviors are becoming almost unmanageable luckily we are still quite a bit larger then him but his rages are getting worse and to be completely honest many nights lately I'm going to bed wondering what tomorrow will bring. I'm sure it is very hard on special needs children to be going through so many emotions highs and lows but let me tell you I just want to cry and cry lately to God, to heal him. I know God has the power to do so!



My roses are so amazing I can't believe they are so pretty at this time of year. I'm trying to remind myself that beautiful things can come out of things even when we completely don't expect it or are in the middle of something so upsetting it makes you want to quit, and God reminds me he equips the called and this to will pass. I'm speaking of a DHS issue that has had me at first so upset and now just saying, "Bring it on, I know my God has a plan for me a plan for my life and to prosper it." I'm in love with the book, "Same Kind of Different as ME" it is an amazing story of how two separate lives come together to glorify God. One of the character's, Denver a Black man grown up on slavery plantations makes this quote and I will never forget it. "When you is precious to God, you become important to Satan. Watch your back Mr...... Somethin bad gettin ready to happen to Miss Debbie. The Thief comes in the night". Miss Debbie is a woman after Gods heart and has made it her life mission to help the poor and hungry. Please pray for our family as we are about to be investigated or a REFERRAL made on us from a sweet little girl who we did respite for her and her brother, she got sunburned and now we are temporary unable to care for sweet babies until this matter is cleared up. My 15 year old said it perfectly when he said, "This is why we don't have enough good foster homes people are afraid of this."

When we first moved to our home over 5 years ago I stuck this cross in the ground in a hurry not intentionally placing just stuck it in and went about my business of moving into our home. You cannot really see the cross but in the fall when the ivy goes away for the winter you would see that at the end of each side of this cross has ivy embosses that are almost identical to the ivy that grew up my cross. It comes back every year and I claimed it to be my own living cross! I have in 15 years of living in Oklahoma have never seen or felt such an amazing August, usually by this time of summer everything is almost dead from the heat and sun. Today this reminded me of Gods power that we so often take for granted. It dawned on me that if our God wanted he actually could make it snow in August he is capable of anything and this I needed to remind myself of today and everyday especially when things aren't just Rosy around me, God is in control. This was more of a journal post but one I wanted to share, I have also an upspoken prayer request and will be flying back to California the week after this one so please keep my family in your prayers! These two verses were on my desk I have written them down sometime ago but very fitting for now. Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own understanding, In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge him, and he will direct and make straight and plan your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes" Proverbs 3:5-7

Aarons 1st day pics that dad took!

Back to school and misc stuff

I have no picturesof my teenagers first day of school this year how sad is that? First time ever and when i told them after school I was sad and needed to take a picture they both laughed at me and made comments that I didn't need to post them on
y blog they call me a blog nerd. Ok next aaron had his first day of preschool today and I couldn't be there I'm at the pheonix airport right now typing on my phone so sad not to be with him but he had daddy taking pictures and picking him up, I'm heading to California. Will be back wednesday a not for pleasure trip but something that had to be done so keepe in your prayers. Here is my problem help me out if you have any words of wisdom. Randy reports to me that when he picked up Aaron teachers asked if he was potty trained? Um no we just put him in underwear to mAke your job harder, yes he is trained... Then Randy suggest maybe because mommy is gone and all the excitement of the first day. Teacher told Randy they have a older twos young threes with a changing table, um no he is 3.5and huge for his age! They also mentioned to Randy thAt he needed to work on his sharing ummmm yes we know that that is why we arepaying the bucks for him to play with others his age. Aaron is basically a only child all of his things are his his teenage sis and bro usually don't want his toys. Lol. I'm sure I'm beingg sensitive cuz he's my son and I kinda take it personal a nd I wasn't even there, so this is all second hand info. Oh I'm so protective of my little monster hope this preschool thing works out