My Journal

Really random dream turned out to not be so random. The last time I heard God speak to me was in the middle of the night I woke up to a loud voice saying Leviticus, I was of course thinking I was waking from a dream and was like what? Leviticus again now I didn't usually read the Old Testament to much usually because I didn't understand it much, so I repeated the name over and over in my head so I would remember it the next morning. This happened in the middle of our roller coaster ride of emotions through Aarons case with DHS. I didn't think I could handle losing this guy that I had grown so attached to and loved. And I constantly went back in forth in my mind, knowing that Gods plan was going to happened whatever it might be and I couldn't stand the not knowing. Well I got up that next morning and read Leveticus very confusing book. But the explanation of this book in my bible says this is the book of laws that shows God's loving concern for health, safety and moral purity of his people. It provided also away for the Hebrews to make amends for what they had done wrong so I still didn't know exactly what God was telling me was he saying the Birth mother can get on the right track or was he saying he cared for Aarons safety? Until I started researching the laws put forth for the protection of the children in the system, and the Child Safety Act and the sentence read almost exactly that the law was put in to act to take care of children making their health, and safety the first concern. No I don't think this law is still being put into effect completly and so many children and babies are being let down by "The system". Anyways my thoughts are rambling as this was over a year an half ago yet so significant in my feelings if that makes any sense. Now to Tues night I had this dream very random and I'll spare all the details but the most significant thing was this pilot keep telling me Colosians and 2nd came in there somewhere but not sure where. Then me and several people were searching for this lost foster baby lets call him babyb he was suppose to be with one family and they thought he was suppose to be with another and then he was lost, we were all searching for him and my husband came walking up from the beach with him he was alive but barely. He was not baby b though he was big brother J three years old. Well my dear friend has baby b in real life not a dream and brother is in another home just found out Wed night foster mom wanting him moved. Of course there is a lot more to this story but for now I have been reading Colosians over and over again hearing God wants us to do everything unto him, no matter what it is do it for the Lord.