Wednesday, September 9, 2009


Just wanted to say goodbye to all my blog friends! I will continue to check your blogs and comment: I have grown to enjoy so many blogs especially the ones I feel connected to by sharing similair stories, but feel led by the spirit at this time that I need to delete my blog. I wish we lived in a perfect world where there was no worries for safety and worrying about protecting our children from harmful people but until God comes back for us this doesn't exist. God Bless and I will stay in touch by email and comments Tracy and Molly!

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Such a very proud Great Aunt oh that sounds old, oh well

Oh my gosh this was such an exciting night for me, I was overwhelmed by joy and goosebumps, being able to just enjoy the birth of my precious great nephew last night, well 2:20 in the morning actually. I couldn't help thinking about Aarons birthmother, through in all those hours we had waiting in the waiting room, heavy on my heart were the birth mothers who go into have thier babies and have either have choosen adoption or have thier babies removed from DHS, how many emotions and how sad it must be for them to leave the hospital after 9 months of a baby growing inside them and all the pain of birthing them and then they're gone. Anyways praying for all those moms tonight! Here is a glimpse of my perfect nephew

Monday, August 31, 2009

Daily Devotional

My friend also a foster mom also a police officers wife sent me this devotional on Friday and I LOVED it! So I subscibed to it, how awesome to check your email and have a devotional, bible verse right there for you and when they seem to be written especially for you well that makes it extra special! Molly I can't wait to get the boys together and I would love to joing the transracial play group and Tracey I cannot wait to talk to you about our kiddos personalities and what helped you all out! Anyways heres today verse and I loved it.... He siad to them, "because of the littleness of your faith[ that is, your lack of firmly relying trust] For I say to you, if you have the faith like a grain of mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, move from here to yonder, place, and it will move, and nothing will be impossible to you." Matthew 17:20

Oh my gosh do you know how small a grain of mustard seed is? I think I have so much Faith until I'm knocked on my bottom and realize this verse is talking to me. I'm working on my Faith and constantly reminding myself that God is in control and can't wait to get that grain size amount of Faith.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

August beautiful August

Nothing is too big for our God! I'm constantly reminding myself of this as I lay awake in bed. My friend gave me a great resource when she told me about the book, "The Power of a Praying parent", God specifically choose us to be the parents of our children and in doing so I have to believe he has also equipped us to handle the issues that arise. We are really just now beginning to see the real special needs of our youngest and behaviors are becoming almost unmanageable luckily we are still quite a bit larger then him but his rages are getting worse and to be completely honest many nights lately I'm going to bed wondering what tomorrow will bring. I'm sure it is very hard on special needs children to be going through so many emotions highs and lows but let me tell you I just want to cry and cry lately to God, to heal him. I know God has the power to do so!

My roses are so amazing I can't believe they are so pretty at this time of year. I'm trying to remind myself that beautiful things can come out of things even when we completely don't expect it or are in the middle of something so upsetting it makes you want to quit, and God reminds me he equips the called and this to will pass. I'm speaking of a DHS issue that has had me at first so upset and now just saying, "Bring it on, I know my God has a plan for me a plan for my life and to prosper it." I'm in love with the book, "Same Kind of Different as ME" it is an amazing story of how two separate lives come together to glorify God. One of the character's, Denver a Black man grown up on slavery plantations makes this quote and I will never forget it. "When you is precious to God, you become important to Satan. Watch your back Mr...... Somethin bad gettin ready to happen to Miss Debbie. The Thief comes in the night". Miss Debbie is a woman after Gods heart and has made it her life mission to help the poor and hungry. Please pray for our family as we are about to be investigated or a REFERRAL made on us from a sweet little girl who we did respite for her and her brother, she got sunburned and now we are temporary unable to care for sweet babies until this matter is cleared up. My 15 year old said it perfectly when he said, "This is why we don't have enough good foster homes people are afraid of this."

When we first moved to our home over 5 years ago I stuck this cross in the ground in a hurry not intentionally placing just stuck it in and went about my business of moving into our home. You cannot really see the cross but in the fall when the ivy goes away for the winter you would see that at the end of each side of this cross has ivy embosses that are almost identical to the ivy that grew up my cross. It comes back every year and I claimed it to be my own living cross! I have in 15 years of living in Oklahoma have never seen or felt such an amazing August, usually by this time of summer everything is almost dead from the heat and sun. Today this reminded me of Gods power that we so often take for granted. It dawned on me that if our God wanted he actually could make it snow in August he is capable of anything and this I needed to remind myself of today and everyday especially when things aren't just Rosy around me, God is in control. This was more of a journal post but one I wanted to share, I have also an upspoken prayer request and will be flying back to California the week after this one so please keep my family in your prayers! These two verses were on my desk I have written them down sometime ago but very fitting for now. Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own understanding, In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge him, and he will direct and make straight and plan your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes" Proverbs 3:5-7

Monday, August 24, 2009

Back to school and misc stuff

I have no picturesof my teenagers first day of school this year how sad is that? First time ever and when i told them after school I was sad and needed to take a picture they both laughed at me and made comments that I didn't need to post them on
y blog they call me a blog nerd. Ok next aaron had his first day of preschool today and I couldn't be there I'm at the pheonix airport right now typing on my phone so sad not to be with him but he had daddy taking pictures and picking him up, I'm heading to California. Will be back wednesday a not for pleasure trip but something that had to be done so keepe in your prayers. Here is my problem help me out if you have any words of wisdom. Randy reports to me that when he picked up Aaron teachers asked if he was potty trained? Um no we just put him in underwear to mAke your job harder, yes he is trained... Then Randy suggest maybe because mommy is gone and all the excitement of the first day. Teacher told Randy they have a older twos young threes with a changing table, um no he is 3.5and huge for his age! They also mentioned to Randy thAt he needed to work on his sharing ummmm yes we know that that is why we arepaying the bucks for him to play with others his age. Aaron is basically a only child all of his things are his his teenage sis and bro usually don't want his toys. Lol. I'm sure I'm beingg sensitive cuz he's my son and I kinda take it personal a nd I wasn't even there, so this is all second hand info. Oh I'm so protective of my little monster hope this preschool thing works out

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Baby Shower

I'm thinking we might have a small jealously thing since Aaron has really been the only baby in the family on our side for 3.5 years, but Aaron says he wants the baby, we will see...

Food family and fun now we are ready for the little guy to come meet us!

the two soon to be gmas my sister Tonya and Luisas mom Patricia

Luisa showing off her rocking chair I made for her well painted and fixed up!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Att Tracy

Please call me see your email for my number, have to talk to you and can't get your # you must not be listed.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Showing off my hall

Well it's been a little over 4 months since we got our family pictures taken it's about time I got them up on the wall. But in all fairness I can't just put new pictures up I have to redo the whole area so I painted and thought of some new things I wanted for this area so here it is....

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Were home and had so much fun!

So tired looks at those eyes

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Six flags

So I'm laying quietly on the bed next to two 3 year olds taking the deepest nap theyhave ever after spending 4 hours at six flags that Was enough for theyounger 2. Our older bunch are still having a great time me and the little ones took the shuttle back to our hotel for a much needed nap and I'm laying here typing on my phone lol. We are having a blast the looks we get with 3 teens 2 toddlers! I'll post pics soon

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Pray for us Respite

I have said ok to respite from tonight thru Tuesday pray for me three toddlers in the house! This fostermom needed someone badly and for some reason I thought I can do this. Get this, a boy and girl 2 and 3 names are E--- and J---- I bet Tracey will figure these names out pretty fast anyways interesting. Will probally not be posting but will be checking in to check to see if Baby Emma has arrived !!!

Monday, July 27, 2009

After a lot of prayer

Well after praying about little B from the shelter and carefully considering it all weekend, I didn't have a complete peace about calling in about taking her in. My number one reason is my very active, at sometimes very aggressive three year old. Being that little B was severly abused and needs a lot of healing time being around a little guy well not so little, who might get jealous of her presence, and just might act out by his famous throwing arm I would hate for her to get hurt or scared after all she has already been through. I'm so praying for this sweet little girl to get a good secure healing placement, as I'm praying for all the children and babies out there with no place to call home this just breaks my heart. I'm hoping that very soon I can take in a newborn who is in transition to a families home or a good placement, a baby I can keep out of arms reach from (Mr. Aaron) and I think he would be much easier going with a baby who sleeps all the time as oppose to another active toddler. I just know I have to do something to help out and my husband has said ok to temporary placements so stay tuned for what God has instore for us!

Saturday, July 25, 2009

A good day

Well today was good I got to go volunteer at the childrens shelter in OKC and I haven't done that for a year now. There were only about 14 kids usually a lot more and 3 toddlers, one I especially wanted to bring home. She just had got there this morning and her face was just bruised with a huge black eye and swollen she will be 2 in September I just wanted to hold her! This makes me so furious I can't comprehend how this is possible and how someone can be so evil to hurt an innocent child. Anyways I plan to call my worker on Monday and see if they need temporary placement to get her out of the shelter. All of the other kids seem to be happy for the most part and participating in all the activities that we had going on. Are time ended at the shelter with pizza for lunch and cupcakes! I came home and hugged on my precious 3 year old and thanked God for him! On a lighter note heres a couple pics of daddy and son on daddy's bike.