Park pictures

Well should have known better then to try to squeeze this in right before lunch but I still got a few cute pictures. Aaron and Ashlein

5 kiddos doesn't leave much time for picture taking

Well my hats off to all my friends with 5 + kiddos. Whew it's a lot of work but very rewarding at the end of the day and you think of all you have accomplished or lack of due t!!!o playtime. Loving Life

Only one little Girl could do this to Aaron.

Ashlein is here for awhile and last night when I went into the living room this is what I found. Ashlein covering Aaron's face in stickers and Aaron was just sitting still letting her. It's so cute to watch these two, they are so close, and one minute they are fighting the next minute they will wait on each other hand and foot. Ok it's really cute. Ps when I showed this post to Ashlein she points at Aarons face and say's sticker boy!!! Ash refuses to hold the baby so far, but she will walk up to her and mimick me saying sweeeetie girl, cutie pie it' is also so funny.

Oh sweet girl!

I have fallen head over heels for this sweet Girl! Dear God I know you are in control.

7 weeks

7 Weeks and my baby girl is so yummy! She is just beautiful.

Court today

Well I went to the first court hearing for Lav well second but first I have gone to.
It never ceases to amaze me the things you see and hear in court, it really is a whole other life. Anyways the short of it.. trial set to terminate on mom in Sept. and paternity trial for alleged dads set for May. Meanwhile family out there, we will see.. it's in Gods hands we are lovin on this sweet sweet baby girl and I love the way Aaron loves on her, it's the same way his big brother and sister love on him it is amazing to see these four kids one being a very tiny baby but how my older two just lavish love and pride over the two little ones now my 4 year old is doing the same with this sweet baby. I do not know if this makes since I'm just trying to make it make since in words the love I see in our family around children and how open and unconditional their love is for these babies of course I hope it helps that they are following by example but it's just something special to see. I know my biological and adopted children are forever changed for the good from fostering babies and that the little bit it takes away from their one on one time with me or Randy is two times greater by the joy I see in them when they're are spending time with our foster baby or adopted son.

Happy Easter

God is Good! Well I feel complete now, with my children I mean, it could be that since the first time around while bringing up our biological children it was a boy and a girl, and I feel as though something was missing when they 're out and about and it's just Aaron and I. Don't get me wrong Aaron is a handful and I love him to death it's just I feel complete with a baby girl also... Even though she is not forever in our home, I don't know if it's because I'm now a seasoned Foster mom and I know all the heart ache that I might and most likely will go thru I do feel a complete peace.. I wonder if it's because I am just given that peace from God, if I'm protecting my heart knowing I'm loving on this sweet girl 24/7 and she will most likely be raised by someone other then me. I really can't control this situation and ohhhh that's so hard for a person like me a control freak. Some nights I wonder to myself why, why did I do this again open my heart up for so much pain, well... then God speaks very loud and clear to me saying Kristy this is your hearts desire and my plan for you here on earth you have love and nurturing to give these babies and it is your gift. Why does that gift have to be so hard to deal with? Well it's also the most rewarding part. I know that I know, that God has a divine plan for sweet Lavender and I'm only a very small part of it. I feel the closest to our Heavenly Father when it's only Faith the unseen that can get me through some very hard days. Is his plan for me and Randy to raise her to be her parents forever we do not know, it is not the plan at this point but we all know that can change. All I know is God sent this amazing baby girl who has the sweetest spirit. Almost as if she's an angel and hear to tell me listen to God lean on God and he will take care of you the way you take care of his children.